Hey There!

Heya,

Well I said I was gonna e-mail you, I didn't think it would be so soon, but no time like the present, ay?!

So it's just before midnight, will likely be after by the time I'm through with this, but I'm not much up to sleeping which is bad, because I'll end up where I was some three/four days ago. Pretty much everything kinda caught up on me. I was so tired, I've been crook with the flu, we're working at full pace because it's almost end of summer and the sessions have been huge. Only one more to go and the entire body of staff is tired too. So the tension is pretty high here. Bottom line is I was in the running for a complete break down.

The novelty has worn off and its now down to hard work to the bone. Which is fine, it's not like hard work scares me, but the toll of being away from the familiarity zone has taken it's toll and I wasn't in a good way. So Janet (kinda like our mother hen) sent me down to her flat for the weekend, not even her housemate was there. Either way I was in a quaint little British Sea Side town and enjoyed every moment of it. I relaxed and chilled and walked along the beach and the pier and thought about everything that's been playing on my mind. Work, Guides, family, Guys, you name it, I was thinking it.

I came back Sunday night ready to take on the world, I looked a lot better, I got some descent sleep and I was feeling far better. I went up to Janet to return the keys, an hour later I emerged with an opportunity which would require a hell of a lot of thinking, only I'm not sure what kind of thinking time frames I'm allowed.

There is a 12 month volunteer position about to open up. It may start as early as the 1st of September, so if I decide to take it, I won't be home before September next year. It's been offered on a plate to me. And okay admittedly I was thinking that staying in the UK wasn't a bad idea. But that was thinking, that wasn't actually doing. Probably a whole lot of hot air. But now that there is an option -I'm terrified. I mean there is so much that I'll need to take into account if I do decided, yeah I want to give it a go. And yeah, top of the list is my job at the crime department. I don't even know how to approach Toni about this. I mean, the job prospect I have sitting there waiting for me is unbelievable. Getting a VPS 3 wage is quite beyond anything I'd expected as a young one straight out of high school with no quals. And I know I am onto a good thing. I'm not stupid. But I just don't know what to do or what options I have. I'm going crazy.

But yeah, in a nut shell that's pretty much what's going on. Other than you, I've told one other person and that's it. I need to try find out more about this job here before I go start making ripples which might land me in strife with people. I don't' know. Its crazy. I have at least till Wednesday which is when Doreen is back who is the person I have to speak to this about. But by the sounds of it they're going to want an answer asap if they want to maybe start it on the 1st of September. It doesn't really give me a lot of time. I can see me having a phone call in the middle of the night just to catch Toni at a good time, if I can catch her at all. I don't think e-mail is going to work well with the kind of time frame I'm facing. On top of that I've got so much more to consider. Argh, there's too much swimming around in my head.

Anyhows, I dribble too much. How is it all going in there? I want to know all about it!! I think of you often, wondering when you'll do the guns and what not. It's all kind of exciting I guess. But how are you handling it? Is it what you expected? Better? Worse? Harder? You can be honest, I mean it's me you're talking to here!

Anyhows, I should probably try get some sleep, I've a 7am start tomorrow with 58 people for breakfast, oh joy. Half hour to prepare too...he he he despite the complaining, I do enjoy what I am doing -most of the time.

Take care mate and look forward to hearing from you!!
Rachael :-)