Hello Again!

Hello my dear!

For starters -don't keep saying thank you!! I know I don't have to do any of the things I do, but I do it because I want to and no thanks is needed. You're my pal and don't ever forget that. We find lots of ways to be strong. Believe it or not there will come a day where you won't sms me, and a week will go by and you still won't. That's okay because believe it or not you'll get back into normal life and won't need the security of Pax Lodge so much. That's not saying I'll stop bugging you, because you know I always will!! But yeah, you will eventually be okay.

Erin hasn't cried yet from what I know, but she's quite close to crashing. We've both been very clingy lately which is a little odd, we seem to be really dwelling on the Erin leaving part. Slowly slowly she's talking to me about things. I know Erin will do what she feels she needs to in her own time. Unlike you I can't bully her into talking to me. It was a case of needing to with you!! But yeah, Erin, I think for the most part is doing okay. I told her I can be there to catch her when she falls.

My "family" were here for two days, both of which I was working so only ever really got to spend time with them in the evening, both of which Erin S seemed to hustle in on. Either way. Then they left quite abruptly yesterday morning thus I am standing out the from of Pax Lodge before flag almost in tears, right as Heather Doreen and Dixon come back from their walk...good lord.

Monique ended up coming with us to take Dixon and Doreen taught us Scottish football songs the whole way back to Pax. Consequently it was a car sing a long. Quite amusing, especially when we then continued it through lunch...

Yesterday arvo I pulled my room to pieces and pulled everything off the walls. Gave Erin a heart failure -six times!! But it's slowly getting back to homely, not so many home photos up anymore. I figure the 14 months seems long enough as it is, too many reminders up only makes it harder. Went for a walk in the Heath yesterday arvo, was gone for nearly two and a half hours and missed dinner. Believe it or not, both erin and I were in there at the same time but didn't cross paths once.

Today I went out for breakfast at lunchtime with Sally and Janet, the three of us then trotted off to Oxford street to do some shopping. It's been an odd two days I tell you. Erin and I did the clingy thing again this arvo and dinner was darn bangers and mash plus the weird conversations with Kat. Trust me, you're in the better place....

I'm glad to hear you're getting back into the swing of things with Guides, having a focus on something like that will help you re-adjust. Yes, Pax Lodge did you wonders my dear and I am so happy you can realise that!! This is such wonderful news!

Janet is slowly back on the mend although it was scary last night because Rebecca did her night shift for her, we nearly dropped dead when we found out.

Okay I have to go, Priyanka wants the computer. Will talk soon and trust me, good things are on their way to you, I promise :-)
Rachael :-)