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Heya,

So I am entering Day 3 without Erin Gow at Pax Lodge. All things considered I am going well. Okay, maybe not that great, but I am getting there. I feel more than anything now, my time as a HA has long been forgotten as Monique and Erin were the last of 'my group' and yeah, the gap has become very prominent. But hey, I expected that would happen. As I said to Erin last night on the phone, I never thought I would feel lonely at Pax Lodge and yet that's exactly what has happened.

They had an International Day yesterday, had a visit by the police during lunch who decided to raid someone's car and do a search for drugs or something. Apparently they'd been following the guy and he stupidly pulled up out the front of Pax right at lunchtime as all the little brownies were in the dining room eating lunch. Apparently Heather and Sally got up quite discreetly and closed the blinds.

The two new HAs have settled in well, their training is in full swing, indeed I am training both House and K2 today thus I am e-mailing you at an hour I am usually still in bed. I haven't had a 7am start in quite some time! But yeah, welcome ceremonies on the 10th. There is a little life back in the HA corridoor again which is nice, but already new traditions have started, the quote board is no longer that, it's used for short stories. There is talk this group want to go to the Walk About most Saturday nights. It's very strange. I almost find I don't want to be here. But then I know I am just really out of sorts at the moment.

Was off yesterday and off again tomorrow, started to move rooms yesterday and will finish tomorrow. Yep, I'm taking over your old room and it is really really weird. I mean on one hand I have to get out of the HA corridoor and my room, there are far too memories there, but on the same token, I don't want to leave and as far as I am concerned, my new room will always be Ruth's room. Yep, I'm not taking things all that well.

I am going to Stafford for Christmas which will be nice. Because of lack of chance to get tickets for Hogmanay I'm now staying in London for New Years Eve. It's gonna suck really. I need to go and find something to do. And soon if I want to go somewhere descent.

Hope things are still getting better for you, and yes, I do know you are there when ever I need you.

Take care and I beeter go check on new Erin, goodness me she's such a goofy person. Sweet Jesus.

Rachael :-)