Aww Yay!

Oh My Dear,

You are back!!! (now giving you the biggest hugs I ever have!!) While the sane and normal and rational part of me was terrified something had gone wrong, there was a little voice of reason telling me you were probably just having server problems. I was a little distressed, yes, but I also knew it really was what, maybe two days at the most I hadn't heard from you?

Speaking of crazy you want to hear something bizarre? Maria in the kitchen has started to pipe up about being the only cook in the place and wants an extra pair of hands. Which is fine, completely understandable. But you know what? She said we should have it like a 12 month positions and you know what? She wants to offer it to Breanne or I!! Doreen was telling the two of us right before dinner and we both turned around and said no at the same time!! Ha! It was hilarious. Come on it's bad enough I'm in there for the 15th Anniversary...

I ended up doing Trisha's after dinner House training because Janet has jumped on a train to go back to Goring until Saturday. You know, I kind of got all sad she was going!! I have been on the verge of tears most of today and yeah, so I went and got a good bye hug and she told me to look after myself and yeah, I wanted to cry! I didn't want her to go!! He he he, I just feel kind of alone right now, that's all. It's a little hard to explain. I know I am happy with all I have here, it's far better than nothing, but there's this little...not insecurity, but insecure feeling, vulnerable almost, sitting in my gut and I feel like a scared little kid. So it was like watching mama duck leave! But yeah, back to training, I was sad when I found out that's what I had to do!! Dinner was horrible, like more horrible than normal. So a few of us are going down to Sexy Budgens to get food. Great Idea.

Tomorrow and the next day I have an Access course I have to go to in Holburn, might meet new people too. Plus they provide a buffet lunch and it won't be at Pax Lodge! I have to leave at like 8:30am to get there on time but I'll still stop by and e-mail you to say good morning now that I can!!

Okay well I'll come back later and talk more, my tummy is kind of grumbling and I think maybe Shanna is getting impatient, she's been down twice already!!

Rachael :-)