Its Another Night Night from Me

Good Evening,

Sometimes I just wish I could pick up the phone and you'd be at the other end. I'm having a 'I really miss Erin' moment. I feel very lonely right now. I know its just because I was sullen earlier and have been wallowing and really shouldn't let them get to me so much. I just, I don't know, I felt like things were on the mend and I was getting somewhere, you know? Like I was sort of not fitting in, but at least feeling a part of things.

Now I am just complaining. I should at least attempt to write something half intelligent shouldn't I? Hmm, let me think about your last e-mail.

I really am sorry about your car. Stupid people, I hate how there is barely any respect for people's property these days. Will it cost much to replace the mirror?

Eton wasn't supposed to look tough. He was supposed to be a cool cat. Like chillin or something. Not tough. Do you really think he looks tough now? It was either those or pink glasses and I dunno, but I think the pink ones were more Cadbury's style...See Hammer was a little on the weird side. Although I know he's a mouse, because of his belly I just think like a big heavy elephant with hammer feat, they kinda stomp around and he's from hampstead so it was a combination of the two. It was one of the first few things that came to mind and well, it just stuck. Nothing else seemed to match too well.

The reason Louise wears a blue shirt is because she wants to!! See, in the 18+ age bracket, you can wear the blue shirt or the wally shirt (mine). The wally shirt tends to be worn a lot by the older leaders and even though both are correct and formal uniform, the wally shirt seems to be that little bit more formal. I was told I had to have a wally shirt because I was coming to a world centre. Tricia chose to wear it. Louise made the excuse up they didn't make wally shirts any more. At home I would choose to wear the blue because I'm not a fan of the wally shirt. That's just how it is I guess.

I am talking to Rebecca as well as I type this, she just happens to be online and yeah, she's going to give me the email address of the lady at Ronald McDonald house. Maybe I could go do one of my three days there, just to go and do something else and meet other people and get out of Pax. Perhaps. I'll e-mail her and see how it goes. I need to do something or I am going to go mad.

Ruth. Well she called for all the same reasons she always does. Life sucks and she don't know what to do about it. Or rather she knows what she needs to do, but won't do it. She has another job interview on Thursday, perhaps this one might be the lucky one. She's also got a bit more music work lined up too. She got a few more students. I wasn't being mean. She does annoy me after a while. I don't mind her calling when things are going wrong, I would hope than any friend I had could feel they could come to me for help. But when it's the same thing over and over and over again and she won't do anything about it, I'm just at a loss, that's all.

Anyways, I've been down here for almost an hour now, and this chair really isn't all that comfortable and my butt is starting to ache. So I guess that means I should get moving.

Take care, I miss you lots,

Rachael