A Few Last Things

Me again,

Am I okay emotionally? Yes I am, I am just generally feeling sad and down and lonely at the moment. I still struggle a little with feeling under the weather. I don't know if talking to Janet would help. This afternoon it was almost like this wave of needing motherly attention washed over me. Like how I used to feel sometimes when leaving my Grandparents when I had to fly back to Melbourne after the holidays. I can't explain it. I just wanted a really big hug and afterwards I felt like crying. It may be that I'm still a little off balance. Perhaps not hearing from you was I part of that, but like I said I figured it was an e-mail problem so don't feel bad about it. It's kinda hard to pin point what is wrong. Nothing specific, but lots of things culminating to make everything seem ten times worse! If that makes sense.

Well, I really should get to sleep since I have to get up a little earlier tomorrow morning for this stupid course. I don't really want to go. Mind you having training in Access will work to my advantage at home when it comes to shifting across jobs if I can. Access is the database program that VicPol uses in the Crime Department because of the flexibility it provides. So that's a good thing I guess. And I get out of Pax and eat Non Pax Food.

Okay, good night, I do miss you lots but I am incredibly happy to have you back! I look forward to seeing you again, even if it does seem a little while away.

Until next time, as always,

Rachael