Hey Please Don't Panic!

Hello,

Now I don't want to worry you but wanted to let you know what was going on. I went and had a word to Janet earlier. Nothing in particular, she just sort of asked how I was and I said I wasn't handling things too well in general. I am a little concerned with the amount I have been drinking. To the point that I've done it several times now and it's almost like a binge session. Nothing very extreme compared to most, but enough for me to suddenly go 'wake up Rachael you don't do this' and know I'm not happy within myself.

In saying that, Janet is going to help me a long, remind me drinking isn't the answer (which I know) and making sure I am not too hard on myself. I've been worried about a few different things and combined together I probably haven't been handling them as well as I usually would.

But today is a new day. I woke up and knew I really have to stop and think and make a whole new start to being here. This is it. I am going to walk every day, and eventually run. Really watch what I'm eating (issues with sugar levels) and not drink. This is it, I am taking control!! I want to get out and do a bit more (as cheaply as possible!!) I am okay, please don't panic.

I hope classes went okay today, or are going okay today.

This afternoon I went to Hamley's with Shanna and we spent a lot of time playing with all the stuff. The Harry Potter Stairwell is now a Narnia one and I'll send some photos at some point. From there we decided to randomly get on a bus, got off near St. pauls and walked across the Millennium bridge, back to St. Paul's and got on the number 15 Route master Bus! Yay! Then caught another one to Hyde Park Corner! Two in one day plus photos! From there it was along Oxford Street to Euston and then on the bus back to Pax and here I am after dinner.

The basement computer has died. Gone to Micro bite heaven. So I am in the library. We have a Thinking Day Ceremony this evening, well in about ten minutes so I have to go change.

I'll come back later and talk more.

Please don't worry about me too much. Everything is under control. I'm suddenly not an alcoholic or anything.

Rachael :-)