Lunchtime!

Good Afternoon,

So I imagine your day is pretty long right? Wait, maybe you haven't started it yet...either way, good luck with the shows, are you being better paid this time? I remember last time you were saying you shouldn't have gone by number of people, rather the number of shows you did. Is that the same this time? Anyhows, are you bringing Mike out today? What sort of shows? Who is in it? Who you doing it with? I know I know 20 questions but I am just curious that's all!

The course is going well, its a lot more information today and how things can go wrong even it you do little things out of place. However, I still like the program and you know what? I can see myself in the future using it for personal projects, be it keeping track of things or whatever. But I like it and I like working with it. See if I go back to my job and transfer to a Receptionist type role, having done this course will work in my favour because part of the reception role (well you're general admin for a squad, not just reception) is to do data entry some of which is passed on by the Analysts who basically write the programming for Access and the databases they set up. I now understand how it all works and why they were so stringent about making sure I didn't do anything wrong when they first got me doing data entry!!

Wow, that was a long sentence. Better take a deep breath...right, am back.

Lunch today is really good, Bree cheese and there is bacon in the sandwiches and the heating is working really well. I think I like these courses, just for the food and the slight freedom you have. Janet was cooking lunch and getting ready for dinner tonight, apparently they're having steak. Man I miss a good piece of steak, I could do with that right now.

I am also talking to Ruth at the moment who is telling me about her bad panto experience. Rebecca signed out earlier and see still has me a little worried but she's also been talking to someone else at Pax who I assume is Breanne. But she tells me she didn't need stitches this time. What's that about? I told her we knew she was trying to hurt herself while at pax and she wanted to know why we thought that. I told her between the two of us we watched and keep an eye on everyone. We were right, she was doing harm to herself. Good grief!

The girl next to me has just gone out for a cigarette which brings me to a confession BUT there is also good news. See, in my randomness on Aussie Day at the WalkAbout, Louise handed me a cigarette and I'll admit, I had a few. Good grief, I felt like I could have died. Then for the rest of the afternoon and the next day, despite having showered and scrubbed my hands so much, all I could smell was cigarettes. It was so horrible and I really did hate myself for it. See, last time I started again, that reaction didn't happen. I just went right back into being a regular smoker. I can't do that this time, I literally felt repulsed by it. While I am kinda mad, I am also relieved to know that I don't think I'll ever be a smoker again. Yes, it's disappointing I know and I think I am cured of being a smoker, I can't believe how repulsed I felt. Yuck.

This food is so darn good!! Well, lunch is pretty much over and I really would like to stay and talk to you, you know that, but I have to go and grab a drink and do a loo stop before we start again.

Rachael